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I understood, beyond all contradiction,
that I did not belong here.
I looked around and saw this was a place for
people who required permission
to do what they they think is right,
or an excuse to do what they know is wrong.
Here, at the intersection of tradition and conformity,
all intentions are twisted awry where they meet.
I could see I was growing into someone
who had my own reasons for living,
hopelessly alien to this place
where the Bronze Age still lingered,
groping for relevance in the Space Age.
Becoming more apparent all the time
that its dogmas hold no answers, then or now.
The past holds much to learn from,
but it is no place to live.
No more than its Language of Debt
offers any future for the living.
I walked away, one foot in front of the other,
seeking my own path...
-01/07/15
The last time I set foot in a church was sometime in the mid 90's, when I was still in high school. By that point, I had come to the realization that I didn't really believe any of the things I claimed to believe, and I simply couldn't play along anymore. Though admitting this to myself proved quite painless, the hardest part was breaking it to my mother, who was very devout, as the main reason I took so long to walk away was because I was more afraid of hurting her than I was was of offending any imaginary beings. In the end, she came to accept it, though I suspect, in her heart, she'll always secretly wish for my return, but at least she respects honesty, and wouldn't want me to just pretend.
Okay, firstly, I want to apologize in advance because there was a specific quote I wanted to find in this book but couldn't because I can't remember where it is and I'm on a time crunch, but here's the basic gist of it: A man who rejects Christianity on the grounds that he honestly just can't believe in it is not so far from the truth as one might think. All I understand it as is a basic misunderstanding as to what Christianity is. (Except he says it way better than that...)
If anyone actually wants to take the plunge and explore the thoughts of the man who said that (who was raised in a Christian culture but became an atheist, then returned to Christianity later), the book he says this in is here: https://www.dacc.edu/assets/pdfs/PCM/merechristianitylewis.pdf Maybe you can find the actual quote for me...