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Losing It

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Published: Jul 14, 2014

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Fighting hard against the stress
trying to get it off my chest
The voices say everything's OK
Why won't they just let me be?
I'm running out of sanity
Pretending everything's OK
And so no one can see
the walls are closing in on me
Please tell me everything's OK

This isn't how it's supposed to be
walking around in slow free-fall
But there's nothing wrong with me
I'm just losing it, that's all

Now I'm losing my touch
still stand to lose much
and everyone deceives me
Paranoid, losing my mind
but really, I'm just fine
You've gotta believe me
But it's torn my mind apart
now I'm afraid of the dark
Please don't leave me

This isn't how it's supposed to be
walking around in slow free-fall
But there's nothing wrong with me
I'm just losing it, that's all

Going nuts & bolts, total basketcase
when my thoughts race into hyperspace
and there's no road map
At first I can just ignore it
so no one will know before it
when I finally snap

One of "them" or one of "us"
it doesn't matter who you trust
(They'll all betray you)
They'll talk about your mental health
and how you really "need some help"
(They'll try to tame you)

This isn't how it's supposed to be
walking around in slow free-fall
But there's nothing wrong with me
I'm just losing it, that's all

twilightzone creepypasta

-circa 1999, revised 2003

Not sure if this counts as creepypasta, as it kinda predates the coining of the genre, but I guess it makes more sense to let readers judge that for themselves. I didn't try my hand at songwriting until I was in college. Sadly, I have all the musical talent of a stump (Okay, I lied, the stump has more musical talent than me :( (Sad)

), but when a friend of mine tried to start a band, I experimented with writing lyrics. Sadly, nothing ever came of it, as he was never able to get a solid crew together, but I still believe the experience helped me become a better writer. (For what it's worth, years later, he did get something off the ground. If you're ever in Washington state, keep an ear out for the Walking Talls. :) (Smile)

)

Much like "Insomnia" this was another attempt to capture how my life felt after over a year of living under frequent lack of sleep, while trying to cope with the stress of being both a full-time student, and a full-time worker. Both of which left you only part-time living.